Right now, I am reading an astoundingly accurate and insightful analysis of the dysfunctinal but perhaps necessary parent/adult-child relationship in this extract from an article in the wonderful quarterly magazine, Fathers.
The extract is written as one paragraph but I've split it into three to highlight and reflect on three distinct and integrated concepts that resonate emphatically with me.
From: Zbyszek Milunski, interview by Jacek Santorski; Fathers Quarterly, pilot issue 2015; www.fathersquarterly.com
"I once read a quote from an African healer who claimed that we ourselves are the place where our ancestors can realize what they have done, and thus become a positive force for the future. I think that kind of consciousness is an extremely important part of the intergenerational process, since most of us sever our ties with our parents because we're critical of them.
Perhaps that stage is a necessary part of our culture if we want it to develop. but I think that there comes a time when you have to mature enough to accept your parent, be it your mother or your father. They are our co-constituents, which means that if we're too critical of one of them, then we're also too critical of ourselves, which hampers our development.
There comes a time in your adult live [sic] when you just have to cut your parents some slack and let them be themselves. That's an important change, because the way it usually works is that we unconsciously treat ourselves the way we were treated as children. It's often the case that an adult who hates his parent treats both himself and his parent the way he was treated as a child..."
1) The idea of inter-generational shared suffering and thus how healing oneself can simultaneously heal all sorts of past suffering and pain.
2) I have spent most of my life criticising my parents and it's only been in recent years that I realised it was myself I was judging more than them. After all, judging others makes no difference whatsoever to the offending behaviour. Realising and observing the magnitude and harshness of one's self criticism is enlightening and full of sadness, particularly when one has their own child and couldn't imagine treating their own offspring with anything but love and kindness. After all, we are our own children and would do well if we treated ourselves with the respect, admiration and care that we lavish (or at least intend to lavish) on our own dear children.
3) Going through the stages of realising my harsh critique of my parents was unjust and often unfounded in truth; making the space to forgive them and myself whilst realising there is no real need for forgiveness as we all simply do the best we can with what we are given; acknowledging that there is no need or call for blame, shame and guilt in a world where life happens the way it will happen often quite regardless of our desires, hopes and actions, I came to see that the way I treat and value my self is paramount if I am to grow and develop in the wise and loving way I long to.
Rache x
